one answer!

What will I do in life ? What I want to do in life ? What is happening in my life ?
I have tried to analyze these 3 questions over the years and I have come to one conclusion.
Why I can't be a Fighter Pilot? Why am I not in IIT today ? Why am I not working in a good organization today ?
There's only answer to it : I never actually wanted to do it. I always wished it happens to me. I was always sitting and wishing all the good things in life just fall into my lap.
I was never clear about my goals.
When I am hungary and I can't find anything to eat ? I look for it and if I can't find it, I still do some arrangement but at least I eat.
When I knew that my exam is coming next day, I would study and study and finish everything off on a single night. Whew!!! , because I never wanted to flunk my exam. I want to do well in exam so I do every possible thing to make it a success. We have a bad habbit of learning from our own mistakes. Those who learn from other mistakes are termed as "Genius".
We have a bad tendency to always listen things but never realize what they actually mean. We never plan things and always wish the failures don't happen but inside your sub concious mind, you know it is bound to happen and you don't have a backup plan for it. You go with the wind and turn whereever the waves turn you and finally you're thrown on the shore and you're stranded and wondering thinking this was not my destination.


Stress on a string too much and it breaks immediately. Stress mildly and it stays taunt and straight. Don't stress it at all and it swings here and there.
Relationships are exactly like that. And you need to know when to stress, how much to stress and when not to do it at all.

Love is blind. You never know when it happens and when it happens, you can't do anything about it. Love makes life go round. Love is beautiful. It should happen at a time when you realize what is coming next. It should happen when you're mature enough to handle the feeling. It should come at a time when you're sure that you WANT him/her and not WISH him/her. There's a hell lot of difference. When you want it, you make your mind that you've to go for her/him, then "how to do it" happens automatically. When you wish it, then "How to FALL in love" happens and you keep falling deep and deep and one fine day, you're even scared to look in the mirror.

Today, my plans are clear and my goal times are set. Love is over and I have no intentions to start all over it again. But then, it might happen at some other time, and that time is no where as far as I can see.